Walk · out · of · her · heart

I'm going to get up early tomorrow and drive on down to Wal-mart(something I never ever do anymore) and purchase something I know very little a/b, bullets. That's right little Katie-le is buying some ammunition to put in her religious books(I couldn't find the right scale and languages of the Bible, Tankah/Torah, Al-Qur'an and Vedas). I still can't believe I'm reduced to going to wal-mart to buy this.

all wanted to do was defile some religious text and puts weapons in them!

later on
It turns out the wal-marts in Cali are far more responsible and took out all guns and amo from their stores. I bought 4 tiny boxes of full metal jackets at a target range... I was so tempted to say that was a good movie to the guy selling me the bullets, but he might of gotten all NRA on my ass.

last night we made two toast for getting Santorum out. (Well the second bottle was supposed to be for the Dems winning the House, but by the time that was fully official we were less excited(most of us were past our bedtimes))

two things made me said last night,
1st not many of my friends and acquaintances voted(many are not registered)
2nd everyone at my sisters knew sooo much about all of the candidates, I just knew PA's and a few random others here and there... but they knew senate and house and ah! how the fuck can they keep track of all of those people and have lives of there own? clearly I have a lot of researching to do before I can be truly proud of casting my little vote

...one of my managers asked me out... he's in his mid 30's! I'm 19 the age difference is far too great... you know I don't even think it would of matter if he had a different personality. He's such a weeny!

rainy day.... like actual rain... not a misting. nearly got hit by a car too. People in oakland can not drive in the rain, like at all!

I hate cold miserable rain

and now back to writing my paper on how Aristotle didn't know shit!

yesterday I spent most of my early morning in agony.... most of the day at the hospital... and most the afternoon couch ridden at my sisters. I had another episode and yeah, the doctors haven't the foggiest of what the hell is going on. The good news they had for me is I'm very health(minus that other problem) and I'm not pregnant! If I was pregnant I wounder if the utra-sound techs would of been more gentle instead of stabbing me with the device and putting "heck" pressure on all my inners.

PS inner city hospitals(privately owned or not) are kinda grody. I never thought much of Grandview, but at least it was clean!

I love my new job, I've been working there for two days but, man, they where awesome! I get movie watching perks and it's a low stress job. One of the best parts is that I'll have actually work friends... LCT I worked alone most of the time and when I did work around people it was pretty formal. And at Cotton and Co aka fancy ass kids crap that is way over priced, The boss lady ways so high strung and made everyone tense and I had nothing in common with those preppy Berkeley girls...except Lina, but we saw each other rarely. At the theater they are a bunch of crazy bastards who are movie junkies, liberals and make fun of the stupid customers(but not as rude and flat out as Randall) ... plus there is a girl who is a jr at CCA. Thor(assistant manager)is a bit of an up tight prick but Glenn(manager) is the dope shit...he wears suspenders and has a Filipino twist to the Don King hairstyle.

Hopefully I'll get a little miss sunshine shirt tonight... I really want "welcome to hell" or "but I'm not going to have any fun".
I really got lucky this time

what it would be like to have problems with your gall bladder... well, I can tell you from first hand experience it's not fun!
I was sent to the er this morning b/c I had severe abdominal pains... My mom thought it was my gall bladder b/c when she was my age she had hers removed due to it being a stupid organ. The doctors pretty much agree that it was indeed my gall bladder and as long as I take heart burn medicine I'll be fine( Ian and I found the last bit amusing)!
so what I learned last night into today is that Genetics is fun!!! Ooo and morphine is one scary mother fucker!

Rules: The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "Five Weird Habits of Yourself" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about five of their weird habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next five people to be tagged and list their LJ IDs.

1) when making eggs of any kind the pan must end up being clean of egg residue when the eggs are done. I hate it when the pans are left on the stove top covered in egg residue... really gross to wash off later.
2) day dream constantly ... always wanting to do something else or live another life
3)at night I'm really paranoid especially in my house... I need to make sure nothing is going to come out and grab me from any dark spot in the room I'm in (so basically I check under any furniture that a small child can fit under and slit my ankles)
4)Esther has to start out sleeping on my bed at night.... part of the paranoia thing, because my 5 pound cat will protect me form the things that go bump in the night
5)I have a drying rack system when doing the dishes. I must always have the dishes drying the "right" way or it will really bother me... (like if any of the glasses are turned on their sides, or the bowls are stacked facing upward... I can't stand things like that)

hum, I seem a little crazy

I'm a history geek! I started to rent TNT's Into the West and, here I am at my computer checking out the facts. As always I get side track on pointless trivia which will most likely become word vomit in an awkward situation in the future. I think I can live with that...

I sometimes wonder if there was more torture in my life would my art improve or be smothered?

I was craving the Cure after dressing up like a circa 1980's goth chick... but no access to my music b/c I still don't have my power cord.i had "the Kiss" stuck in my head all night
makes me sad that I don't have enough new wave looking clothes here. I wanted to be a new wave chick over the summer... oh well..
something strange I noticed last night is how cool I looked being goth, but only in soft light( bright fluorescent lights made the white eye shadow(which was all over my face) sparkly(the only white power(that was make up) in the house)
the Kiss
Kiss me(X3)
Your tongue is like poison
So swollen it fills up my mouth

Love me(X3)
You nail me to the floor
And push my guts all inside out

Get it out get it out get it out
Get your fucking voice
Out of my head

I never wanted this
I never wanted any of this
I wish you were dead(X2)

I never wanted any of this
I wish you were dead
Dead(X3)

so I made it. I got through my 1st year of art school. I'm rather happy with just about evey choice I've made since the past August.
left CA in a hurry... left my chargers for computer and phone behind in two separate apartments.... I really could of used my gadgets in FL. Remember how I would occasionally joke about so and so driving me to the bottle, well... it kinda happen. I'm not an alcoholic or anything(not after 3-4drinks) but I do love rum now. basically Grandma and uncle Andy can go to hell for all I care. I made the huge mistake of letting them get to me and my cure were these lovely mix drinks Nell gave me.

oh, by the way the lay over in Atlanta was filled with art-gasms! It is like a fucking museum, no need to visit the city, just wander around in the airport!

so I think I missed Claire...that sucks oh well, wild wood isn't too far away(road trip!)
why is it I feel so much better driving on I-95 as oppose to I-880? Something about the east coast...

I was in the metals studio from 2pm to 5am. I feel like throwing up or getting hit by a car. red eye tonight, moving all of my "treasures"(I'm disgusted as to how much crap I have) to my sister's this afternoon.
did i mention I feel like vomiting my insides out?...my J/MA final crit is today in 4 hours....I'm not finished and I'm being pulled in so many directions.